Fall compulsions

Do you know that feeling when you are motivated by forces outside yourself? Or when you suddenly become obsessed with totally un-you things? Or the even scarier feeling of catching yourself doing it?

Within about 2 minutes all three of these realisations hit me today. First, I headed over to the hippie store to stock up on more spices and bulk items. Then,I was at the grocery store picking up what started as 4 project-oriented items. Suddenly, I was filling my basket (never get a cart, it's just asking for trouble), with all sorts of baking items and random items. I wasn't even hungry (another bad idea). I became aware of this weird cold-weather compulsion to make and eat food. And while I was aware of it, I couldn't really stop.

Now I have to make 2 kinds of muffins, a cranberry crunch, chili and something else involving potatoes. On the flip side, I do like me some muffins. And I can warm up my apartment with the oven, so I don't have to break down and turn on the heat. Which feels really silly when it is still above freezing and is just for me. But it does have me thinking of investing in a space heater. Having pretty much survived on space heaters in Yellow House, I know what to look for in a heater. Thermostat, timer, ideally a remote.

I am hoping that all of this cold-weather prep/lockdown will either get me excited about being cold. Or ideally encourage a return of the warm.