Ohio University - Here I Come

After days of agonizing, waffling, whimpering on the email and phone, I have finally made a real decision. I have accepted Ohio's offer to join their MA program. I think the positive vibes, combined with the inate geekiness I can't shake, and some time in the real world, should make this a really great year. My mentor has written papers on queer theory and the Muppets! And he even suggested my taking classes with the grad actors to compliment my research in movement & dance as physical storytelling.

It took some hand-holding from Domestic God to actually send the emails, but I didn't throw up, and I feel pretty calm and solid about this decision. While I think South Carolina's program is really solid, I don't think it is really what I am looking for anymore. Or perhaps he is looking for a person that I'm really not anymore. I am so solid in this, I don't even need to visit. Because if nothing else, it would be a waste of their time and mine. And I like the idea that I am actively turning down an offer rather than losing one.

An MA will mostly likely lead to a PhD, neither of which prevent me from directing. And it will be great to be in a supportive environment with people excited to work with me. I like the idea of focusing my energy on improving my work and doing some interesting stuff, rather than trying to impress people or prove myself.

More than anything, it's great to have a concrete plan, to have made a decision (despite alot of sniveling, panicking, struggling, etc.), and to be moving forward again. I have clawed my way to a nice level. The view is pretty nice from here. I can see where I came from, and the fact I still have a long way to go.

on iTunes: "Whoo! Alright...Yeah Yeah" - The Rapture (my new favorite song. great for dancing. esp. in cubicles)